
1. I watched it. 2. I got the hidden message. 3. I listened to the real main track.

It took me a very long time to figure out that people like me— average yet deeply insecure— get used up and spat out, unless I learned to stand up for myself. Reading books by Korean women helped tremendously in this regard.

It took me over 20 years to get to this point. This point of being deeply, truly, profoundly ok with being ok. Not extraordinary, not profound, not poignant. Just ok. Even mediocre.

I’ve had an interesting journey with fear since the start of this year. The first step is understanding, as fear thrives on ignorance. The situations or things I fear most are truly holograms manufactured by my mind, projected onto the giant screen that I’m pressed up against.